Selepas kemarau mestinya musim hujan. Dua minggu ni boleh dikatakan hujan setiap dua atau tiga hari. Aku tak merungut. Kan hujan pemberian Tuhan.
Hampir setengah tahun aku tanam anggur. Macam kejap je. Ada cuba cari kerja kat Batu Pahat ni tapi susah sikit sebab tak.berapa banyak company IT (mungkin aku yang tak tahu kot).
Haritu dapat kerja kat pejabat peguam. Mula-mula kata sebagai kerani. Bila pergi macam runner pula. Bila seharian macam tak sedap lak. Bila dapat the big picture, my family wouldnt like this. Nak sembunyikan dari family memang boleh tapi tak selesa hidup sebumbung tapi sembunyi-sembunyi. Nak menipu memang tak r! Sehari dua lepas. Berbulan-bulan? No thank you even the pay is much more from what I earned before.
Konon nak hidup jujur. Kan.
Jadi balik tanam anggur.
Rubber tapping
Tailoring.
Pandai lak pulak aku nak jadi tukang jahit.
Boleh r sikit (tgn kat bahu mata ke langit).
Sometimes I wonder if I took another way. Maybe right now, I'll be with the girls. Hangout at the cafe. On weekends, probably watching movies, food hunting, jogging by the lake near my office. Maybe walking around somewhere in KL or Selangor.
Sigh.
I miss my friends. I really do. A lot.
But I'm a coward.
I dont have the guts to explain properly to them. And to my boss.
But I dont think that I'll explain because doing that is neutralizing myself.
It's heavy down pour outside. How I pray that I can let the rain wash away everything.
But then, this wouldnt called LIFE.
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