[Nostalgia]

I'm nostalgic today.

Teringat seorang teman lama. Maka aku browse Facebook dia. Scroll back to 2010. There's nothing that related to me of course. Just for memory.

Aku kenal lagu Begging by Madcon thru Facebook and somehow it's been burned to my head.

Aku cuba cari balik posts 2010 dalam ni tapi macam tak ada. * dem ko perasaan!

Mostly dah tak ada, apa yang ada cuma rasa bersalah. And some lingering feeling.

Nak minta maaf sebab layan dia teruk sangat dulu. Nak explain kenapa aku buat semua tu. Nak... macam2 lah..

But then again, the question is:

AM I DOING THIS BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO FEEL GUILTY (i'm being selfish)?

Or because....

Aku tak tahu.

Yang aku tahu, aku menyesal and I'm sorry.

Patut ke aku ketuk lagi pintu ke sana?

Dia nampak dah bahagia sekarang...

Maybe I should just watch from afar.

Maybe someday, that person will read again my blog and stumbled that post and this post.

Hopefully...